Title: "SPN - Drabble/Ficlet 01"
Author: Hecate
Fandom: Supernatural
Rating: PG 13
Pairing, Character: Sam/Jess, Sam/Dean
Summary: Sam dreams.
Disclaimer: Not mine. No money made.
Note: Unbetaed.

At Stanford Sam used to dream of Dean, of the wide smile that charmed women easily, of the way Dean fired his gun or drew his knife out under his pillow, the way Dean looked in the morning.

He missed Dean in fragments, missed the smile and the jokes, and he missed all of him when he woke up, sweating and scared. Jessica would cuddle up to him them, silent and warm, and the fear would flee in her presence. Jessica was everything in those moments and Dean was just a dream he sometimes had and he never told her that he kissed his brother once.

After Jessica died he stopped dreaming of Dean because Dean was with him, talking and laughing and fighting. After Jessica died he dreamed of death only, dressed up in flames and blood, and he woke up screaming inside. Dean would mock him then, worry lines starting to mark his face, but it was never enough to chase the fear away.

He missed Jessica in fragments during the day, missed the sound of her voice coming from the next room, her laughter keeping him from studying. He missed all of her at night when Dean tried to stop the nightmares the only way he knew and Dean´s kisses weren´t like hers at all and his jokes couldn´t replace her silence.